August 2, that's a long time not to blog but there has been much going on in my world, some good, some challenges but ulimatley it has brought me through to a new peace in my life. I found it intersting that many times I went to blog about the trials I was facing but the lord clearly put it on my heart not to share at the moment they were happening like I was before. The lord respects us and I think he knows what needs to be heard by his people in the timing it is suppose to be given to have the greatest effect. Today on Sept 7 I feel it is time to come back online and share some of those trials and to begin putting out blogs again around life and its experiences and the joys of living a life trusting in the God to provide everything not just the things we want.
I think to summerize things in a nutshell is transitions are harder than we think. I went from a 24/7 job that had me constantly hooked up to every little thing that was happening via technology. My new life is far from that, it is quite, sometimes boring and provides a lot of reflection time. When you swing from one end of the spectrum to the other the trip between the two has a few bumps in it (Ok, more like a bunch of mountains and valleys in it). Often times I found myself trying to turn back to the old way where I knew or thought I knew how to act and feel. This transition wasn't just about Mike. It greatly effected Jodi and the girls each in our own ways and together as a family. For me it was the stuggle with the sense of purpose and what I was. This sounds like a simple thought but it caused a huge strain on my marriage and created a Mike who looked a lot like the LA Mike, quick to anger and unsure of himself. Through the fire of this God provided my with not only a wife but a great women of god who has great wisdom. She said to me, "You must embrace this time, if the greatest thing you do in a day is take care of my nieces and nephew then thats a pretty good day." That hit me like a ton of bricks. I was missing out on one of the major reasons why I'm here and what a waste it was letting the devil trample all over me. During this time I was making some bad choices in how I was living, that came to a quick end on a Friday morning early in August when I realized that I'm 44 not 22 and the devil was done messing with me. So now each day I get up and embrace the day for what it brings. I can say I have enjoyed doing a lot of cooking of some fancy meals for the girls, hanging out with my nieces and nephew and yes sometimes I enjoy just sitting around being bored. I take each experience and live it in the momment its happening, are there and will there be trials, yes, but the lord has shaped and molded me through the fire to handle them.
I have spent a lot of time out in the boat, as fall arrives plan to do some more fishing with the cooler weather and I have enjoyed racing and now the start of hockey season. Jodi's business has really taken off and is doing well. She enjoys her job at Angelina's and has networked a lot of contacts includinbg a possible job opportuity I am exploring. I wish she would write a blog on her story could really help all of us. Her world has completely shifted and changed and it is a much greater challenge than I have faced.
I can say right now I am living the life I wanted when I made the choice to leave my airline career. I love being in Minnesota, the cool and color of fall is in the air and the world just seems right at this moment. I was raised in the four seasons and where ever I have been that didnt have them I always felt a little out of kilter. Now I am back in sync with my internal clock. Guess winter is coming a huge flock of geese are flying over right now heading south?
I really enjoy writing these blogs, I hope you find something that will help you realize that if you trust only one thing in your life, no matter your past, trust the lord. He is always there, you can't make him mad and that sometimes the things you want may not be in his plan and that's ok because in the end his plan allows you to have a eternal life of happiness.
Have a blessed day in whatever your doing!!!
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