Just celebrated our 18th wedding anniversary yesterday. Thanks for all the warm wishes we recieved. Our trek through marriage could be a series of blogs itself for sure all with a great ending because no matter the high and lows we have we have always been there for eachother and our love and friendship won out in the end of any crisis. I hate that society has made marriages disposable and that when you think your done with it you just throw it out. Really would any of you married couples want to hit the dating pool out there? (Sorry single folks its true). But to what I really want ot blog about.
We have hit the tough part of this journey. As I write today it is the last day for Abbey and Hayley here in Cali. For Abbey no big deal for Hayley it is the last day for her and her very dear friend Amy to spend together. You forget those little friendships are more than just the two of them. Amy has a great family and we really enjoy her Mom and Dad. I had taken Abbey to the ortho yesterday and then all the girls and thier friends to laser tag. I got back home and saw Jodi very sad. I thought what went wrong, something with our move plans? That's the guy in me. She said she had been in Target and she couldn't stop crying. She had talked to Amy's mom and the reality of the situation came on her full force. At this point it was pretty late in the day and I had the Wanner hungary on, that is when a Wanner boy doesn't eat and gets extremely cranky. I didn't react as well as I could of but said hey lets get dinner. We went out and enjoyed a great dinner at a place called Stacks where you do all the ordering off an I Pad. Fun time had a lot of laughs with the girls. We got home Jodi was tired and I could still see she was pretty sad as she was laying on our bed. I fought my urge to "Fix Her" and just went up and kissed her on the cheek and said it was alright to be sad and I love you. Understand we as guys always want ot fix things it is our nature. What I'm finding out everyday especially with girls is that it is more important to be a rock to lean on and a ear to listen in every situation good or bad. I believe I have all this worldly profound wisdom, but only our god can fix our hearts.
For me I guess it hasn't hit yet that I know of? My time out here was a constant battle with moments of enjoyment scatterered in. It is the place that almost destroyed my marriage and my family because of my focus and identity being in my job. It had became my god and I was worshiping false idols. My work is where I spent all my time physically and mentalitly and everything else fell way down the priority list. Yes, so I have a little different perspective on this place but I said yesterday I will never regret this decision to come hear the trials shaped and molded me in the fire for God's great plan. I will ask here who is your god, your job, your debt, your hobbies, what is it that takes your focus off him?
God has put it on my heart to be very honest and lay it out for all to see so it may help someone along the way. God's promise is real but don't get fooled that just because your following him that everything will be perfect. Faith is when you trust him always, though Jodi is very sad right now I still trust his plan and that what she is going through is normal human emotion. I do know that Jodi isn't sad about our choice to leave, or the dramatic change in our life situation, it is her huge heart hurting for Amy and her family knowing how much their daughter will miss Hayley and there great friendship, that makes her real and the wonderful person she is. The world wants to make everything look easy and everything has a story book ending. God's story never ends, for those who believe we have eternal life, think about it our life and spirit go on forever in a new body free from all the worldly pain and emotions. Just think you can now wonder what you'll be doing when you turn 1 billion years old that will be quite a party!
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